February has proved about exciting as a Norah Jones album (or Bore-ah Jones as I like to call her). There isn't really anything to report...yet again.
The full steam momentum we seemed to start this trying-to-conceive journey with appears to have fizzled out. Where before I would be so emotionally invested in the set backs and disappointments, I now find myself emotionally bankrupt - not that I don't care, just that I have nothing left to react appropriately (or even inappropriately).
Have I just learnt to expect bad news? Have I conditioned myself to accept that this journey will never end with a child of our own - and that these steps are merely to show we tried everything we could? How exactly do I let go completely an allow fate to take it's course? Is this something that everyone struggles with?
I suppose it doesn't help that I am fiercely independent (unashamedly so) and the thought of people "feeling sorry" for me makes me want to vomit. I am the take-care-of-er not the take-care-of-ee - what a struggle that is for my brain to deal with! But it's probably not a bad life lesson to learn - even at 32 years old.
Patience and positivity - the words that bump around in my brain tank on the daily - such wonderful virtues to possess - but seriously, do they come naturally to ANYONE? I am still "take a breath and count to ten"ing most days...not a bad method to slow myself/my natural reaction to difficult situations down - but cripes it would be so much easier if it was natural habit instead of so forced!
Dr WhatsHisName (I actually do know his name - I just like the way it sounds) has extended our Clomid treatment by 3 months. I suspect he is buying us some time until our waiting period for private health cover expires - but whatever the reason I am eternally grateful - what a champ!
And in a further twist, I am about to re-enrol myself in uni (after a disastrous attempt 14 years ago) - not 100% sure what course yet - but I do have a short list. I figure what better way to test fertility fate than signing up for the constraints of full time study whilst full time working...Murphy's Law - come at me!
Thanks again for stopping by - hopefully something a little more riveting next time.
Saturday, 2 March 2013
If you are looking for a light dinner option, or in minature a great appetiser for a dinner party..then look no further than these quick, simple and healthy zucchini and haloumi fritters.
Grate 4 large zucchini into a colander - let them sit for half an hour
Finely dice an onion, crush two cloves of garlic and 2 rashers of bacon (can be left out if you are after a vege only option)
Fry the onion, garlic and bacon in a small amount of oil/spray
While the onion etc is cooking, grate 250g of haloumi cheese into a bowl - and add the finely grated zest of half a lemon
Squeeze out the excess moisture from the zucchini through the colander and add to haloumi, along with the onion etc and mix well
Sprinkle flour over the top of the mix until covered (the amount of flour will depend on how big your zucchinis were and how much moisture you got out of them - this step will require you to adjust your mixture accordingly)
Add two beaten eggs to the mix and stir until it becomes slightly "gluggy" - the mixture is not meant to be batter with bits of stuff floating around but more the ingredients bound together with a really small amount of batter...this is where you may need to add extra flour
Season with pepper - you won't need salt as the bacon and haloumi are both pre' salty
Heat 5mm of oil in a frying pan (again you can use what type you like - but I wouldn't recommend an olive oil with a strong taste - and you want something that can stand a prolonged heat - coconut oil works really well, as does peanut or vegetable)
Fry batches of mixture in whatever size you like (I made ours into large "burger" size patties for our main meal, if you wanted smaller appetiser size ones just cook them for less time each side) until golden brown each side and drain on paper towel.
They taste especially good with a nice relish or chutney and a simple side salad.
I am not sure whether it's my impatient excitement about the upcoming "Oz the Great and Powerful" (a prequel to the Wizard of Oz), or the fact that emerald green was named Pantone's Colour of the Year for 2013 - but anything green has been really turning my head lately. Here are some of my fav finds:
ps I realise the irony of the last item's message (teatowel print) and the fact this is a list of material "things" but there you go...I love stuff and things....