Saturday, 5 January 2013


My last appointment with Dr WhatsHisName (Dr Trimble is on maternity leave - ironic much?) went a little something like this:

Dr: Any luck yet?
Me: Nope.
Dr: Ok, so you have 2 rounds of Clomid left. Now is probably a good time to start thinking about a Plan B.
Me: Okaaaaaaaayyyyyyy (slightly worried face)
Dr: Now I know most people don't have tens of thousands of dollars to spend on IVF, so you need to make sure you are realistic about what your options are.
Me: Okaaaaaaaayyyyyyy (even worrieder face, and thinking all the while "why did Dr Trimble and her positive attitude have to leave meeeeeeeeee!!!????)

Truth is, he IS right. And it's not like J and I haven't had these discussions before. But this whole time, I have been hoping for someone to tell me that it's definately, absolutely, for SURESIES gonna happen for us - on this date, at this time and you are going to handle it perfectly.
But that's not gonna happen, and there is a chance that this isn't gonna happen either, so................
Where does that leave J and I?

IVF? We can't afford right now.
Adoption? One for and one against = a stalemate?
Keep trying? Not appealing for either of our sanities....
And just when I thought I couldn't get any more confused!

I look at J sometimes and think "he'd be better off without me", "he'd have a chance with someone else", "he doesn't deserve this". Not to try and sound like a martyr or anything - but that's how much I love this dude. I honestly contemplate leaving him so he could have a chance at a better life with someone else.

And there is my clue - we love each other enough 

  • to go through all this hurt and disappointment, stress and anguish, 
  • to make bringing a little piece of each other into the world our top priority, 
  • to realise that if this Clomid doesn't result in a pregnancy and we have no other options at this time - that we will be fine. 
I am enough for him, and he is enough for me, and anything else that comes along will be a blessing but isn't what will make this relationship work. This relationship worked in the first place, from the first moment in fact. And that's worth sticking around for.

Now all that being said, I still have 2 months worth of stinky, foul tasting Clomid tablets to gobble up, and, as Dr WhatsHisName so helpfully pointed out, "there is no reason it won't work".

So here's to staying positive and a lucky number (20)13!

S xx

Crafty Organisation

what a great idea - filing cabinet to categorise fabrics (seen on sewmanyways blog)

simple trestle tables = lots of desk space

easy peasy lemon squeezy DIY desk top storage

We have a side verandah which at the moment is a haven for boxes of crap we don't use very often (or at all!) and a place for the cats to hide from the dog. Project one of our home renos this year will be to turn this space into a productive creative area for our computers and sewing machines and lightboxes etc with some of the great ideas above. Progress shots to follow.....

Summer lustin'

one. necklace @ diva two. hammock @ etsy three. sunglasses @ hardtofind four. dress @ treeoflife five. cider @ danmurphys six. sandals @ treeoflife seven. mango pops @ thedesignfiles

Inspire Me

Tuesday, 1 January 2013

Welcome 2013!

Hi y'all. I am back.... well sort of.... I am working out how to set this blog up in a more professional/pretty way - so I have had a break from writing posts for a bit. I have every intention of kicking back into it - so bear with me if the posts come out a bit higgle-dee-piggle-dee for the time being.
Did you all have a great Christmas and New Years? J and I did - it was a lovely quiet break ending with a great party with great people last night to see out 2012 and welcome in 2013. I am resolving to be much more creative this year - amongst other resolutions - and am ready to get it cranking ASAP! I am not usually one for making resolutions - let's see how this goes...... 
Thanks for stopping by lovelies
S xx