Sunday, 12 May 2013

It gets a little harder 
with each and every year.
The loneliness, the guilt,
the pain and the fear.
On days like today
when it should be me as well,
no matter how hard i try
the tears begin to swell.
Yes, I can distract myself
with the care and love of others,
but really all I think about
is joining with those mothers.
How can I feel so much longing
for someone not even conceived?
the journey taking longer 
than i ever could have believed.
I may not have her in my arms or
that place filled in my heart
but baby, our bond is real
and was right from the start.
I have been watching those around me
to see just how they do,
so on the day we finally meet
I can be the best for you.
I am really good at making lists
and planning and taking care,
but this one is out of my hands
and patience mine to bear.
So baby, take your time -
I'll be ready for you, come what may, 
and looking forward to the year 
you make MY Mothers' Day.

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